http://holy-mad-cow-b.blog.co.uk/en-UKhttp://backend.userland.com/rss092http://holy-mad-cow-b.blog.co.uk/http://data5.blog.de/design/preview/85/87333aaab6113f6db4a0268186e0ca_160x200.jpg <p>Ok,</p> <p>having cheated on my boyfriend whilst on holiday with the American Chris, I have developed v.v.v.v. bad tonsillitis as punishment, most definitely from him. guess karma does work then!! BUGGER!</p> <p>rang bf to say that he probably, no definitely has it and all he could say was:<br> “oh well...at least you haven’t got brain cancer!” </p> <p>The least I can say is that I expected some sympathy from him, especially after all we have been through. We’ve been together for nearly 5 months and yet in the 2nd month he was nearly killed in a car accident, and landed in hospital for over a month (6 weeks to be exact). During that time I went and visited him every single day, even though I was doing my A level exams and had to travel over 60 to see him each day. Any remorse or concern for me when I’m ill? Fat chance so I can safely say that when I’m better, this relationship is over, the mean, arrogant, selfish tosser. He didn’t even ask how I felt or that he hoped for a speedy recovery. Well darling this relationship is over, I just hope that he gets tonsillitis too!!!</p> <p>Truth is that I still care about dick the bf, but how can i stay with him if it is a one sided relationship, where he expectes the woman to be the woman? take this for example, one day i was doing the ironing at home when dick turned up. did he help? no, just called it "a woman's job". I feel that he doesn't care half for me as i do him. He still gets jealous about my male friends and ex, whom i'm still good mates with. What does he want me to be, a housewife @ 18 for him?</p> <p>Oh and things get much better, well revenge wise,...got a text from the American who is now back in London and wants to meet up. What shall I do? Is it that hard to guess?? We'll see won't we... </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://holy-mad-cow-b.blog.co.uk/2005/07/27/just_desserts/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://holy-mad-cow-b.blog.co.uk/2005/07/27/just_desserts/Wed, 27 Jul 2005 18:39:14 +0200 <p>i've just come back from a weeks trip to nimes and barcelona with 3 girl buddies and 2 male buddies. well infact it was 2 couples (both heterosexual) and a newly singled girl...and then there was me. the main reason that this entry is entitled regrets is solely because of wednesday night, on a pub crawl organised by my hostel where i was staying. i went with CB cause the others didn't want to come, but then neither did she. we went to 4 different pubs followed by a night club. during this i met 8 americans,2 french, 1 sewde, 1 danish, 1 finish, 2 brits and 2 aussies. by the 3rd pub, CB had left me alone with 3 of the american; chris, chris and erin. great guys and only older by a couple of years. </p> <p>yes there were free shots at each pub, but otherwise i was stone cold sober. the only still problem is that one of the chris' and i got...ahem...a little too close for comfort aka dirty dancing and some OS. oh bugger!!!!! the main problem facing me is that i have a boyfriend of over 4 months, who i thought i really cared about, but now i'm not so sure wether its working or not. firstly there's so much i don't know about him and visa versa, secondly he scares me cause he is bulit like brick shit (hence you'd be stupid to start a fight with him, trust me i've seen the results) and thirdly his last girlfriend (of 22 months eeek!) cheated on him so he has trust issues and so if i tell him, i'm probably likely to destroy all future trust of the opposite sex and from that all fututre realtionships.</p> <p>should i tell him as he's begining to suspect something's up. this is cause he called me last night, just when i had got back from being in london after the second attacks, and i said to him that i was scared that he will hit me and / or my friends. i have good reason i guess cause he has a caution for abh due to nearly killing the guy his ex cheated with. </p> <p>we also have different social class backgrounds and whilst i'm going to uni, he's staying at home to work on the family farm. i've never met all of his friends, yet he has mine, and he goes through my text's seeing who i have called and texted. so if it's a bloke he goes mad and starts jumping to conclusions, plus he has someone who watches me around where i live all the time and what i do and who i met for a drink down the pub<br> AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!! <img src="/img/smilies/icon_crazy.gif" alt=":crazy:" class="middle" border="0"><br> then there's the "i love you's" after only 7 weeks of being together and the saying from his parents that he should marry me, for f**k's sake <img src="/img/smilies/icon_censored.gif" alt=">:XX" class="middle" border="0">, i'm only 17!!! i have no idea what i should do now; tell him what happened and crush him or stay quite with my heavy conscience? i think i'll give the later a try, it might be easier....i hope <img src="/img/smilies/grayconfused.gif" alt=":??:" class="middle" border="0"> </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://holy-mad-cow-b.blog.co.uk/2005/07/22/regrets_and_thoughts/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://holy-mad-cow-b.blog.co.uk/2005/07/22/regrets_and_thoughts/Fri, 22 Jul 2005 17:10:10 +0200